The Soliloquy of A Little Women

When I was in elementary school in North Carolina I went to a program everyday before school. There was a lady there by the name of Ms. Kimmie that I would always sit and talk to since I was one of the oldest kids there. We talked about writing (I wrote poetry in elementary and middle school), and she also loved to write poetry. I remember my last day at the program she came in the room with a gift for me. It was a picture frame that held a poem that she wrote for me entitled "The Soliloquy of A Little Women". The poem read.....

"World Rescuer,

You walk on meadows conquering hearts and souls for GOD. As long as you are true to yourself- Your will; will continue to master the harsh reality that blows on our EARTH. You are GOD sent with her message written on your heart-------------Continue to soar and may endeavors be yours FOREVER. 


Your Friend, 


Ms. Kimmie"

I was in elementary school when someone wrote this to me. I thought of it as something nice then but didn't fully understand what she meant. Now I am 21 years old and reading this again and I understand that this was really deep. I don't even know if I'm worthy of such a description even now. I don't know where Ms. Kimmie is, I don't even know her last name. But I do hope that I can live up to what she saw for me. It's given me a guide and when I'm down it's something I look to for inspiration. I don't know what exactly she saw for me, or in me. I have veered off the path many many times but I feel like now I'm back on track....

Signed,

Little Woman

Diary of a Brown Girl

This post is going to be a little personal but I feel it is very relevant to things I have been seeing and hearing lately. You know what, not even lately. It's more like all my life. I just recently have come to terms with what I consider is beautiful. I will even go as far as to say I've just recently within the past two years become more comfortable in my own skin.
Growing up my family always told me I was pretty and up to a certain age I believed them. Then I hit the teenage, "growing into myself" phase. When you live in a society that embraces "good hair", lighter skin, small facial features, and small frames, and you don't have ANY of that...you start to second guess yourself. I'm brown skin (in the summer super dark), big nose, big teeth, chinky eyed girl with a big round head,and fat cheeks. I didn't know what standard of beauty I fit. As a matter of fact, I didn't think I fit any standard of beauty and the world around me seemed to support my thought process.
Now I am a 21 year old young woman and I actually do consider myself to be attractive and my self esteem is pretty high. Yet even now, I STILL am confronted with my standards of beauty. On numerous occasions I have been the exception to guys, "light skin" rule. And in my head I'm thinking, "so I guess only light skin girls can be insightful, down to earth, friendly, (and whatever else they like)". I guess if your brown skin/dark skin you're automatically knocked of the desirable list. I have even had a distant cousin come to me and say, "wow, I have a dark skin cousin.....AND SHE'S PRETTY!!". What does that even mean?!
And it's horrible because children are the first to pick up on these things! As a young girl I loved Beyonce but had to play Kelly because I was dark skin and my friend was light skin. Let's not even consider the fact that I was the only one that could sing. An example of how to a kid, the skin color takes precedence over talent. Times are changing but still this seems to be a problem still around.
I personally believe that every skin color is beautiful and should be embraced. I embrace my tan in the summer and refuse to be ashamed. It gets under my skin how even in the media "light is right" and "black is wack". That probably wasn't the best saying but I think you can get the over all effect of what I mean.
What do you think about society's standard of beauty and it's affect on the world around us?

Exxon Earns almost $11 billion in 3 Months

At a time where drivers are paying nearly $4 a gallon for gas, Exxon has managed to earn almost $11 billion dollars in the first quarter. This is something that affects everyone who reads this and beyond. I don't know if anyone else is mad but I know I am. If gas prices are going up, the common sense perception I would think is that big businesses are taking big blows to the pocket just like the customers are when they fill up their tank. Yet, Exxon has managed to hit their highest numbers since 2008 in their third quarter. Exxon has stated that they have little control over the gas prices but I personally believe that something needs to be done.
While big companies benefit at record levels, everyday people are taking $100 to fill up their tank. How is this fair and whose money and mistakes are we compensating for? The thing that sucks is that, we are STILL going to buy gas as much as we complain. At my school students tried to promote a day when no one would buy gas. I personally participated and was very disheartened to see that my couple of dollars made no difference because people were waiting at the gas pumps as usual by the loads. As much as we complain, I feel like if we aren't going to do anything then we might as well stop whining and keep feeding Exxon's pockets and abandoning our own. I can't speak for anyone else but I'm about to break out the trusty old Huffy.